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Out from the Ashes

Hoo boy...

After much thought and consideration, I have decided to reopen this blogspot. It's something that I've been using since the start of college, but it was only a spot to vent and pour out frustrations and regrets.

Looking at the end of college and the start of the next chapter of my life, I want to use this blog for something bigger, something more. And so that when I look back on this part of my life, I will have something to remember it by.

ただいま.

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